User Profile

You can call me Dee, thats my nick name. I'm from Nor * Cal. I'm 18 years old. I'm pretty easy going and pretty friendly person. I have struggled with my body image in the past sense I was about 15 years Old. I have been a member of live journal before and found it very helpful and inspiring when i was, that is why I'm back. I have an obsession with being (skinny, thin, light, not fat, underwight, PERFECT if you will)or whatever else you want to call it and need somewhere where I can talk about it. I know of no one else who has an eating disorded and have no one to vent to or talk to when I am fasting and really want one of those cookies in the kitchen, so thats why I'm here. I say I am both doctor and self diagnosed because, when I was 15, almost 16, I was diagonsed as anorexic. The reason I self-diagnose too is because I do eat most of the time, most days I eat no more than 400 calories, but then there are times I fast too, so I Self Diagonse as ED-NOS with ana tendencies. I'm coming into livejournal just looking to relate to people and to discuss some of the things I can't anywhere else.
I'm not currently @ the weight I want to be @ but I will be. I will be posting pictures of myself soon and hope to get some constructive critisism out of it.

MY STATS

Height: 5'3
HW: 133 lbs
CW: 123.2 lbs
LW: 98 lbs
STGW: 115 lbs
LTGW1: 108 lbs
LTGW2: 98 lbs(until I get there)
In a nutshell, at the end of the summer I weighed 98 lbs, the lightest I've ever been. My goal weight at that time was 88 lbs, I got all the way to 98 lbs and people started noticing my rapid weight loss, which I still don't understand because I was only 114 lbs before that so it isn't like I lost 50 lbs or anything. Anyhow, next thing I know the word gets around and everyone is trying to shove food down my throat. I held off for a while but eventually had to give in when my parents threatened to take me to a doctor, which they ended up doing anyways, if I wouldn't "start eating like a normal person." I went into recovery mode shortly after that and just recently came out. I think they are temporarly satisfied, I couldn't hold off any longer anyways I was, well still am, f***ing huge. I had never been that fat in my life. Well thats it and I'm on my way back down the scale. HW: 133lbs CW: 123.2lbs///So see you in the ed communities.

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